I’ve only just got round to actually finishing the Artist’s Way. On the 4th of December, I posted that I was dawdling and I’ve just stayed like that really. I did my morning pages quite well until I was away at the weekend and haven’t really picked them back up. I’m still not doing so well with artist’s dates – what’s that all about? I tell myself that the dates in town are more difficult at this time of year, but actually the museums and galleries are blissfully quiet. I have spent some good quality knitting time over the last week which has got me a bit more balanced.
After I posted the dawdling post, I did indeed re-pot my plants (which were very thankful for it) and do my mending, so really all that was left to do today was a couple of written tasks. (Sorry, Artist’s Way, but I’m not making a ‘God jar’.)
One was to write about my various fears and resistances going forward. I do feel a bit worried – I don’t think I’ve been creating as well over the last 3 weeks and I’m worried that I’m the only person on earth to come out of the Artist’s Way blocked when I wasn’t to start with! But again, it’s a strange time of year. Finishing NaNoWriMo was strange too, and just not as satisfying as it should have been, given that the piece wasn’t finished. I’m very tempted to go along with JanNoWriMo, although that suggestion did elicit a groan from Mr Woodsmoke!
I still have trouble getting on board with the whole idea that if you are just open to your creative self, the universe will send success your way. Carly at NakedCarlyArt put it really well in her review of week 6 when she said Destitute humans did not get to that point by failing to fulfill their creative destinies. I still find this core principle of the Artist’s Way rather hard to handle – I’d love to hear how other people have got their heads round it.
On the other hand, there is so much of the Artist’s Way that has been brilliant. It really reintroduced me to the idea that I could have pure childlike fun in my life. I am much more willing to say “OK, I feel like I want to buy some felt pens and stickers and spend an hour making fancy labels rather than utilitarian ones? Great, I’ll go for it!” whereas before I would have told myself to be a sensible adult and talked myself out of it.
Really my priority going forward is to continue to do the fun things. I think since I wrote my last Artist’s Way post I’ve managed to dig myself out of my feeling of obligation around my artistic activities, but I haven’t necessarily started doing them just for fun again (the poetry/fiction writing has pretty much been on hold since my last writing group which was three weeks ago).
There’s a bit of me that wonders whether I should just start the whole Artist’s Way thing over again from the start…?